ABOUT

I came to this field of work through my own healing journey years ago. Traditional talk therapy didn't do much for my PTSD, complex PTSD and depression, so I went on a quest.

I researched everything trauma-related, tried every trauma-informed modality that I could find, and slowly started to heal.

I underwent a five year initiation where I would heal layers of trauma after layers of trauma, some mine, some ancestral.

This work became my passion and it became obvious that this was my path.

I have trained in many different modalities with different teachers that I now combine intuitively (IFS, somatics, EFT, IEMT, inner child).

But ultimately tools are just tools, and I believe the depth that I have explored within myself allows me to hold others in their own darkness, we can't guide someone somewhere we have never been.

I am still, and always will be, a student of this work.

This isn’t a career to me, it’s a joy and an honour to facilitate transformation and healing for others.

FULL STORY

At the age of 19, after dark years of intense abuse by my family, I became completely debilitated with severe depression, PTSD and C-PTSD.

I couldn’t function, I was completely hopeless and my body was in complete collapse. I was ashamed of my symptoms, afraid of asking for help, and thought I didn’t have my place in the world. I lived in survival and control, afraid of the world, triggered by others constantly. I thought others were fine and that there was something deeply wrong with me.

So I did what I thought I had to, I started “traditional talk therapy”.

Even though I had a safe space and an empathetic and loving witness, no matter how much effort I put into healing, I wasn’t getting better.

I gave myself a year to get better, and out of a mix of determination and hopelessness, I started researching ways to heal. I cut ties with my abusive family.

I didn’t tell this to anyone but I decided to focus fully on my healing process. It was a bet with life. And I’m still here.

During that year I started researching everything I could find on trauma work. I didn’t know back then, but I now realise I was doing advanced research on trauma alone in my room with books and experimentally through my own journey.

I researched everything I could find, tried every modality on the market. I didn’t want to just get better, I wanted to understand the deep principles behind healing, the most efficient way to heal, why certain modalities worked and not others, how they could work hand in hand even if no one else was doing it yet.

I wanted to find the “best way to heal”, “the most efficient modality” and the best therapist.

I did Somatic Experiencing, Internal Family Systems, EMDR, Brainspotting, EFT, FasterEFT, IEMT, breath work, shamanic healing.

I approached healing as something to be fixed or changed in me, a “problem to be solved”. I found all these techniques amazing, but I was confused because I felt like they complemented each other and a more holistic approach combining them was needed.

While looking for an EFT therapist, I found a very special wise woman, a Soul kin, who was able to hold and guide me on that deep journey, welcoming and loving every part of me, not only the nice ones.

Early on the journey, I remember feeling that if I could get myself through it, I would help others on the way, I felt like it wasn’t only about me.

I then went through a five year initiation. Five years of darkness.

After every big trauma I would heal, another wave of trauma would come to the surface to be seen and healed. I didn’t understand why, I didn’t know anyone on the healing path, I was alone in it, I didn’t know if the healing path existed at all.

I had no life, no map, no spiritual guidance, no framework — barely any support around me apart from a toxic relationship.

I became deeply regressed, a younger version of myself resurfacing, carrying unmet emotional needs and early childhood pain. All the buried pain I had in me, from my childhood as well as inherited patterns became accessible. It felt like I was processing trauma from my own history as well as from previous generations. It felt like a dark tunnel that would never end, there was always more to sit with, and I couldn’t live a normal life.

I sat with grief, hopelessness, rage, deep sorrows, fears and a lot of confusion.

I uncovered layers of pain I could barely hold myself.

It was ugly and very messy, but equally beautiful and freeing, because it was true.

New parts of me I didn’t know existed emerged, it turned out that what I thought as my personality were defence mechanisms to my past trauma.

Slowly, I started to heal. I started not only understanding what had happened to me, but feeling it. My childhood became a very painful picture to look at. The scapegoating, narcissistic abuse from my mother, physical abuse, sexual trauma and neglect that I had suppressed came back strongly.

My journey was very Earthy and grounded. I started connecting to the Earth as a living presence. I wasn’t completely alone anymore, there was a felt sense of support around me. It was Jyn — a very wise and loving dog — who taught me presence and unconditional love, as I couldn’t feel safe enough around other people.

My scientific mind began to trust this process, and my thirst for finding the best way to heal stopped. It became obvious that I had been guided in this process, and that behind all that darkness, there was also a lot of support and care.

I had been on a spiritual quest for years, looking for Truth and finding pieces of it in many traditions but I could never follow a teacher or a specific path. No path seemed to hold it all and it was extremely confusing. I was alone trying to put the pieces of the puzzle together.

Although I fell into some spiritual bypassing on my journey, it started to be clear that my healing journey WAS the spiritual journey all along. I discovered that there isn’t one way to heal, that healing is a holistic process that requires a loving presence to feel the past together, so that it doesn’t become the future.

I also sat with Ayahuasca and had a spontaneous Kundalini awakening, which deepened my understanding of the mystical and symbolic dimensions of healing.

I know the pain of sitting with your trauma for years and being misunderstood by others around you. I know the loneliness of this path as well as the depth of it.

I also know the quiet return of the Self, the light at the end of the tunnel, the return of true joy, spontaneity, passion and peace. The post-traumatic growth of feeling deeply connected to oneself and to life, and feeling like I am the creator of my life rather than the victim of it. I never thought I could be a happy person and yet here I am.

I believe the journey never ends. I am still an imperfect human learning about life every single day. I am and always will be a student of life, but I am not stuck in the past anymore or defined by it, I am at peace with it, and that is the place from which I can help others.

I believe you can’t guide others in deep waters if you haven’t been there yourself, and this is my contribution to the world.

It is a true honour to hold others on the path.